*sigh* Its Monday. In fact, its Monday night, and another day is fast sneaking past without me blogging. Dammit, how does that happen so quick? Most days i look at this blog every single day. Even when i don't post, i read back over things and look at comments and all that. Not since Thursday. i closed the blog after i wrote the last entry and i haven't looked in it since. Like a little kid holding her hands over her eyes and thinking that will make her invisible. *sigh*
i don't know where to go. Once again i am lost. Suddenly nothing makes sense anymore and everything is interconnected. i close my eyes at night and the word whore flashes on and off in bright neon. Something like: "Did i pay the satellite bill? WHORE whore J needs new tennis shoes, his have a hole in them. WHORE whore Where am i going to get the money for Brad's dental surgery? WHORE whore" And, around and around into infinity. Its so stupid. Its not like its some kind of newsflash to me. i knew i was a whore before last week. Isn't what i've been telling you guys about since May? So what's the problem? i have no idea.
No fucking clue. So that's where i am at the moment. Lost.
