From there things just get screwy in my mind. i'm missing a big ass chunk of time i cannot seem to get back no matter how hard i try. And, this stuff was 21 years ago, if it didn't make a big impression on me, i've lost it through natural memory loss and too many drugs. Here's the next clear thing i have. It was probably a couple of weeks later.
i was in the waiting room of a doctors office. The nurse kept looking at me like she was about to burst into tears and trying to give me things to play with or candy out of the candy jar. i did not trust this. i knew she had some sort of ulterior motive. The place was entirely empty. The office part where the nurses and office ladies usually sat was dark and deserted. There was only me and this woman who was frankly annoying the hell out of me. i retreated to the far side of the room and looked out the window. It was raining, hard. When i looked out i only saw two vehicles in the parking lot. my Mama's green car and my Daddy's brown truck. i sat there staring out the window a long time, watching and waiting for my Granny's car to pull in. i knew it was only a matter of time. And, i did rather miss my Granny. In fact, it had become a bit of a painful ache. Finally the door opened and i heard my mother sniffling. i turned to look and my parents were standing across the room huddled close together like little children. They stared at me like i was a stranger. A diseased one.
