Monday, July 24, 2006

A Job Well Done 

JH never beat on me. Not once. He was never physically violent. He may have slapped me a twice in my life for being extremely resistant. Mostly it was words. He ripped me to shreds with words that left me willing to do anything to make him stop saying them. "You little cunt, why'd you like your own Granddaddy doing those things and not want a real man to touch you?" or "You need to learn how to be good so you can make a man love you some day. Your own Daddy hates you." And i would cave.
i'm not sure i can say he ever really raped me. i always said no, but in the end i always said yes. i always did the best i could. JH trained me. By the time i hit Edward's house most of my training was completed. JH had done it. And, had done a good job.

Raven screamed at 11:03 PM