i've been thinking about how people who read this page see me. And, what they see is a victim. But, that's not all there is to me. There is so much more. There is a woman who laughs at herself when she fucks up, a woman who goes out to the grocery store in her pjs from time to time. A woman who gets down on her luck and goes back to what she knows and does phone sex or sells sex toys til she pulls her family out of the hole. A woman who knows she learned to give the best damn blowjob any man has ever had and takes pride in it. In short a woman who was able to take some good things away from that time in my life. A woman who learned to survive and make the best of her life.
A woman who is funny and friendly if you'll just hit that email me button.
J calls me angel and i like that name but i am by no means a saint. i did some dirty greasy shit during my time, you can't survive and not. i betrayed Benny, i hurt other girls feelings horribly, i was violent, i fucked up time and again. i projected my shit onto other people and i was just... mean sometimes. i did the best i could, but you know what, it wasn't always good enough.
So anyway, there is a little about who i am. Please feel free to email me. Thanks to those who do. i really appreciate it, you get me thinking in new directions a lot and that's a really cool thing.
