i knew i'd be in terrible trouble but the need was too great. i listened to Kayla's screams and hid behind the rec room sofa and lacerated my legs. Every scream was another jagged cut. my hands shook with fear. John said the next time he'd take all my skin off. That was okay though. That would just be more cuts in a way. i curled up in a ball and awaited discovery. i knew the rage would be awful to behold. The cutting was the one thing i was willfully disobedient about. i had been for as long as i could remember. Maybe they would just kill me this time.
